So today, something big was revealed in the world of Supernatural and it sparked me to think; actually just how emotionally invested am I in fictional characters? My need for characters to be in love, to become friends or to come back to life sometimes makes me think that they're actual stories happening in the actual world to actual people. But they're not! Coming to this realisation is one of the most saddening things for an extremely emotional person as I.
I grow attached to characters as if they are my family. When I found out that JK Rowling was considering killing off Ron Weasley; I nearly murdered an entire family of innocent squirrels; and we don't even have squirrels in Australia! When Sherlock jumps off that dang building and John runs to the battered body at the end of Season 2, I swear to you my heart stopped and my eyes stung like a bitch. When Rose was ripped from the Doctor at Canary Wharf and had to say her final goodbye and miss out on hearing him say that he loves her...Well let's not even start on how puffy my face gets every time I watch that stupid episode. I bawl like a hungry baby when Frodo leaves Middle Earth; leaving Sam, Pippin and Merry behind. Heck, I even tear up when Crowley yells out about how he 'deserves to be loved' at the end of Season 8 Supernatural.
These characters have a way of worming their way into hearts and ripping them apart with one foul, evil, cockroachey swoop.
In this current world of Tumblr, Torrents and Canon Storylines, we as teenagers find ourselves corrupted by TV shows, movies and books so easily. We analyse simple looks between our OTP (One True Pairing; the people you wish to be together; for example, my OTP is and always will be Rose and the 10th Doctor) and make exaggerations about how it totally means they know they love each other. The writers could've just wanted the pair to look at each other or nod, but in our dramatic and fantastic minds, we make it out like it was the true declaration of their love and soon they will be running off into the sunset hand in hand with birds chirping and love hearts flying around their heads as This I Promise You by *NSYNC plays in the background.
We are a romantic generation. That's my conclusion to it all. And now, as blogs start to become bigger and bigger, writers of shows or movies are starting to take notice of what the population wants for characters.
An example of this is the addition of the "I'm mad for her" by Neville Longbottom about Luna Lovegood in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part II. Those avid HP fans; such as I, would know that Neville goes on to marry Hannah Abbott and become the Herbology Professor at Hogwarts. However, most people shipped Neville and Luna and I believe this is why the writer decided to add it to the movie. Sure, Neville may still go onto marry Hannah; but let's be honest, in the world of Harry Potter, they marry young! I'm a bit bitter about the Neville-Luna cross over if you can't tell.
The newest example of this is the events of today. With Jensen Ackles (who plays Dean Winchester in Supernatural) admitting to the fact that in the script of Ep 17 of Season 8, Dean told Castiel he loves him. (Though this didn't make it into the show, it's seen in the Season 8 gag reel) It's no lie that Destiel is one of the biggest OTP's on Tumblr. Pretty much everyone ships them and pretty much everyone thinks they're in love (Emphasis on the "pretty much" as I know not everyone does). The relationship between Dean and Castiel is one that most want to become something more; according to my generation, they need to become Canon. The Tumblrverse knew that the writers of Supernatural were aware of how much people want this human-angel romance to become true and even the cast of the show like to play it up. Jensen and Misha Collins (who plays Castiel) have even stated that they now act as if the pair are in love, incorporating it into the way they portray the characters and have never ruled out something happening between the two. The chance of something now happening between the two in actuality is causing almost chaos on Tumblr.
THIS IS GREAT! Bring on Season 9 with Human-Castiel and Dean saying "I love you" for the second time (hopefully!)
I don't really know what I've written, but I feel like I got my point out and can now go and sob about the upcoming 50th Anniversary episode of Doctor Who with 10 and Rose back together (HOLD ME), the regeneration of the 11th Doctor (HOLDD MEEE) and the inevitable return on Sherlock (MOFFAT YOU BEAST BRING IT BACK, DAMN IT!)
Thanks for reading my babble,
I'll catch ya on da flip side, gangsta.
Peace.
Elise
xx
Monday, 14 October 2013
Monday, 8 July 2013
Some Rant-y Fun?
You know when someone says something to you and they don't even think about what they are really saying? Yeah well that happened to me last week and I literally can't stop thinking about it. Now, when I see that person popping up on my Facebook, I literally just want to slap them across the face.
I work hard planning, writing and recording songs and videos for my YouTube because I'm trying to get my name out there in that aspect and to have someone say that when they're famous, I can just mooch off of their popularity makes me feel sick.
First of all, those people who don't really have that much passion or work that hard on getting their name out there prove that they're not 100% committed to ending up where I want to be.
I've taken a year off of schooling to focus on honing in and developing my guitar, singing and songwriting skills and, starting next year, am going to devote myself to a 3 year course on the music industry and music performance, so to be told that I don't have to work hard, I can just be that person that becomes famous because my friend is famous really truly makes me angry.
To be honest, when this person said what they did to me, the first thing that popped into my mind was that they thought that I wasn't going to be good enough to become successful. I created this scenario in my head that they believed that in order for me to achieve what I want, I was going to have to get help from more successful friends and that just bought me down.
The worst part is is that this person is someone who would "make it" simply because they seem to have a good support base.
I have three solid viewers of my videos - not including my family -, one being my very best friend and the other two those supportive people who will always like and watch when I link my videos.
Other than that, the majority of people on my Facebook (not all, there are still others who will like or comment) ignore when I post a link to a cover or a vlog.
I've been making videos on YouTube since May of 2011 (To put that into perspective, that's longer than big YouTubers like Mazzi Maz, Caspar Lee, the Janoskians and Jacks Gap, all accounts that have subscriber numbers in the 100,000 to million range) and sure, my first ones were awkward makeup tutorials that were terrible quality and inconsistent, but I eventually began to put more up and more consistently. In those 2 and a bit years, I've only managed to gain 83 subscribers.
It makes you feel there's no point. I feel like my videos are ok and I take a lot of 'inspiration' from the bigger YouTubers, but I think that if I was seen as a more 'cool' person, my videos would have a ton more views. Things like this make me wonder; if I was to someday become popular on YouTube or live out my dream of becoming known as a musician, would these friends who don't really acknowledge my videos now suddenly decide I was worth their time? It will be interesting to see!
So basically, I lack the 'cool' factor. Which is true, I'm a dork, but I'm a dork who knows what I want however takes little things to heart, like what this person said to me.
I'm probably making it into a bigger deal than it is, but when someone says something like that to you, it's not something you can just forget about.
With all this said, watch my latest video!
Sorry, this was more of a inconsistently ranty post, but I didn't feel like keeping the thoughts in!
Thank you for reading, I love you :) :)
Elise
xx
I work hard planning, writing and recording songs and videos for my YouTube because I'm trying to get my name out there in that aspect and to have someone say that when they're famous, I can just mooch off of their popularity makes me feel sick.
First of all, those people who don't really have that much passion or work that hard on getting their name out there prove that they're not 100% committed to ending up where I want to be.
I've taken a year off of schooling to focus on honing in and developing my guitar, singing and songwriting skills and, starting next year, am going to devote myself to a 3 year course on the music industry and music performance, so to be told that I don't have to work hard, I can just be that person that becomes famous because my friend is famous really truly makes me angry.
To be honest, when this person said what they did to me, the first thing that popped into my mind was that they thought that I wasn't going to be good enough to become successful. I created this scenario in my head that they believed that in order for me to achieve what I want, I was going to have to get help from more successful friends and that just bought me down.
The worst part is is that this person is someone who would "make it" simply because they seem to have a good support base.
I have three solid viewers of my videos - not including my family -, one being my very best friend and the other two those supportive people who will always like and watch when I link my videos.
Other than that, the majority of people on my Facebook (not all, there are still others who will like or comment) ignore when I post a link to a cover or a vlog.
I've been making videos on YouTube since May of 2011 (To put that into perspective, that's longer than big YouTubers like Mazzi Maz, Caspar Lee, the Janoskians and Jacks Gap, all accounts that have subscriber numbers in the 100,000 to million range) and sure, my first ones were awkward makeup tutorials that were terrible quality and inconsistent, but I eventually began to put more up and more consistently. In those 2 and a bit years, I've only managed to gain 83 subscribers.
It makes you feel there's no point. I feel like my videos are ok and I take a lot of 'inspiration' from the bigger YouTubers, but I think that if I was seen as a more 'cool' person, my videos would have a ton more views. Things like this make me wonder; if I was to someday become popular on YouTube or live out my dream of becoming known as a musician, would these friends who don't really acknowledge my videos now suddenly decide I was worth their time? It will be interesting to see!
So basically, I lack the 'cool' factor. Which is true, I'm a dork, but I'm a dork who knows what I want however takes little things to heart, like what this person said to me.
I'm probably making it into a bigger deal than it is, but when someone says something like that to you, it's not something you can just forget about.
With all this said, watch my latest video!
Sorry, this was more of a inconsistently ranty post, but I didn't feel like keeping the thoughts in!
Thank you for reading, I love you :) :)
Elise
xx
Tuesday, 25 June 2013
Long Time, No Blog!
Hey hey hey
So, first, I'd like to say sorry for not blogging for quite a while. I just literally haven't thought about blogging and the last time I did, I was in a very different state of mind.
I feel a lot better since then and to be honest, I didn't even realise that I wasn't really okay. All it took for me to feel better was to talk about all this things that had been huge weights on my chest and as soon as I had said it out in the open, it's like my life had a bit of purpose back.
To be honest, not much has changed since then except for my mindset and plans.
I have been busy lately writing songs and taking myself on little adventures around Melbourne. I spend a lot of time alone, but I love it and love being able to do my own thing by myself, I am so content being by myself, especially now that I'm not all down in the dumps about life.
I feel like I have so much more purpose and so many new ideas about what I want to achieve in my life and what I really want to get out of life and this has all come about from spending more time surrounding myself with music, singing and recording. I get such an awesome thrill recording a song and then putting it up on Soundcloud or YouTube to have people see/hear it and that's what makes me know that I want to do it for the rest of my life. You only understand what it's like if you have experienced something similar. Likewise, my main passion is actually performing in front of people.
I perform once a month at a local wine bars' open mic night and though most of my performance goes unnoticed by the crowds as they are there to socialise with their friends (I don't mind it at all), it's the times when I start a particular song that may be a well known one or more quiet, guitar-concentrated piece and everyone just sort of stops and listens, turning to look at me, those moments are the most amazing ones. Even if I sound like crap, just having people taking that time to turn around and listen to you performing really warms your heart.
Having instances like these really help you to want to work hard and concentrate on that passion and it has made me decide to go against myself a little bit and take that plunge into uni next year. I want to learn my passion even more, meet industry professionals, network and get myself out there, get myself known in the cliques I eventually want to be big in.
So since April the 30th, I've truly redefined myself, figured out what I want most and squashed out the thoughts that made me constantly unhappy and constantly feeling all alone in the world. I'd never been to such a weird place like that before and really hope I never go back to one like it, I didn't even realise how down I felt and it was all down to not feeling 100% passionate about how I was to spend the next couple of years.
Eventually, my main goal is to end up in London performing, becoming well known but as a very wise young man said to me, "You've got your big goal of London, but no goals of how to actually get there" (he didn't say those words, but he said something like that).
So I'm setting goals, my first major one, get into a Bachelor of Music course for next year.
My first minor one, continue playing at the open mic night.
Start getting my name out there and hopefully, one day, my dream will come true, but no dream comes true without hard work and determination.
If you read this, thank you for actually taking the time out of your day! If you are someone who regularly watches my YouTube videos, thank you because not many people take notice when I post them on Facebook and it's the special few who do that really matter. So, once again, thank you!
Hopefully, you'll see me blogging again soon :)
Elise
xx
So, first, I'd like to say sorry for not blogging for quite a while. I just literally haven't thought about blogging and the last time I did, I was in a very different state of mind.
I feel a lot better since then and to be honest, I didn't even realise that I wasn't really okay. All it took for me to feel better was to talk about all this things that had been huge weights on my chest and as soon as I had said it out in the open, it's like my life had a bit of purpose back.
To be honest, not much has changed since then except for my mindset and plans.
I have been busy lately writing songs and taking myself on little adventures around Melbourne. I spend a lot of time alone, but I love it and love being able to do my own thing by myself, I am so content being by myself, especially now that I'm not all down in the dumps about life.
I feel like I have so much more purpose and so many new ideas about what I want to achieve in my life and what I really want to get out of life and this has all come about from spending more time surrounding myself with music, singing and recording. I get such an awesome thrill recording a song and then putting it up on Soundcloud or YouTube to have people see/hear it and that's what makes me know that I want to do it for the rest of my life. You only understand what it's like if you have experienced something similar. Likewise, my main passion is actually performing in front of people.
I perform once a month at a local wine bars' open mic night and though most of my performance goes unnoticed by the crowds as they are there to socialise with their friends (I don't mind it at all), it's the times when I start a particular song that may be a well known one or more quiet, guitar-concentrated piece and everyone just sort of stops and listens, turning to look at me, those moments are the most amazing ones. Even if I sound like crap, just having people taking that time to turn around and listen to you performing really warms your heart.
Having instances like these really help you to want to work hard and concentrate on that passion and it has made me decide to go against myself a little bit and take that plunge into uni next year. I want to learn my passion even more, meet industry professionals, network and get myself out there, get myself known in the cliques I eventually want to be big in.
So since April the 30th, I've truly redefined myself, figured out what I want most and squashed out the thoughts that made me constantly unhappy and constantly feeling all alone in the world. I'd never been to such a weird place like that before and really hope I never go back to one like it, I didn't even realise how down I felt and it was all down to not feeling 100% passionate about how I was to spend the next couple of years.
Eventually, my main goal is to end up in London performing, becoming well known but as a very wise young man said to me, "You've got your big goal of London, but no goals of how to actually get there" (he didn't say those words, but he said something like that).
So I'm setting goals, my first major one, get into a Bachelor of Music course for next year.
My first minor one, continue playing at the open mic night.
Start getting my name out there and hopefully, one day, my dream will come true, but no dream comes true without hard work and determination.
If you read this, thank you for actually taking the time out of your day! If you are someone who regularly watches my YouTube videos, thank you because not many people take notice when I post them on Facebook and it's the special few who do that really matter. So, once again, thank you!
Hopefully, you'll see me blogging again soon :)
Elise
xx
Tuesday, 30 April 2013
New Cover, brother
Hey kids muhahahaha!
My impression of Krusty the Clown right there, pretty good, 'ey?
So basically, I'm writing this post to let you know that I've put up a new cover on my YouTube
My voice is pretty crappy in this haha but I'm putting it up anyway.
I hope you enjoy!
Elise
x
My impression of Krusty the Clown right there, pretty good, 'ey?
So basically, I'm writing this post to let you know that I've put up a new cover on my YouTube
I hope you enjoy!
Elise
x
Thursday, 25 April 2013
Y is for YouTube!
Hey hey hey Facebook friends who randomly read my blog!
So I uploaded another video to the lovely land of YouTube this evening and I think you should check it out!
I discuss the recently announced split of British boy band JLS as well as some other hard hitting boy band themed topics such as the hiatus trend, the depressing thought of a 1D breakup and the 20 year reign of the Backstreet Boys!
So check it out, even if you're not a fan of boy bands, maybe you'll get a kick out of seeing me all frazzled!
Thanks for reading, hot stuff ;)
Elise
xx
So I uploaded another video to the lovely land of YouTube this evening and I think you should check it out!
So check it out, even if you're not a fan of boy bands, maybe you'll get a kick out of seeing me all frazzled!
Thanks for reading, hot stuff ;)
Elise
xx
Wednesday, 17 April 2013
Wow
I haven't posted in a week because I literally have nothing to post about. That is how boring my life is. Stupid life. Be more exciting. Get famous already.
Wah.
The most worrying thing in my life is that I haven't yet found another job and I'm convinced my dad is going to kill me. He's probably not, but you never know. Everyone I see around me has these looks in their eyes, like they're ready to kill. I'm ready to retaliate though, no one can kill me, I'm unkillable. Ha ha ha, go me! Team Elise, for the win...
How's life, keyboard? Is it rocking? I'm sure it's not, I mean you get smashed by eight random pointy things everyday, how is that fun!? I don't think it would be fun at all.
People seem to link insanity with unemployment, but I'm not unemployed therefor I'm not insane! HAHA TAKE THAT!
Oh god, massive deje vu. WOW IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO TYPE THAT I HAD TO GOOGLE IT. #reckless.
So, anyone want me to perform at an event for them? I play guitar or piano and I'll play anything you tell me to or I'll organise my own playlist, but honestly, you want a live performer, you can have me.
Also, if you want someone to do your makeup for your deb or formal or something, I'm your man! Just send me a cheeky inbox on Facebook or text me if you have my number and I will LITERALLY POUNCE ON THAT JOB LIKE A LION ON A MOUSE.
Anyways, love ya, love me, love always, Sherlock.
I kid, it's me Elise!
SEE YAAAA
xxxxxxxxx
Wah.
The most worrying thing in my life is that I haven't yet found another job and I'm convinced my dad is going to kill me. He's probably not, but you never know. Everyone I see around me has these looks in their eyes, like they're ready to kill. I'm ready to retaliate though, no one can kill me, I'm unkillable. Ha ha ha, go me! Team Elise, for the win...
How's life, keyboard? Is it rocking? I'm sure it's not, I mean you get smashed by eight random pointy things everyday, how is that fun!? I don't think it would be fun at all.
People seem to link insanity with unemployment, but I'm not unemployed therefor I'm not insane! HAHA TAKE THAT!
Oh god, massive deje vu. WOW IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO TYPE THAT I HAD TO GOOGLE IT. #reckless.
So, anyone want me to perform at an event for them? I play guitar or piano and I'll play anything you tell me to or I'll organise my own playlist, but honestly, you want a live performer, you can have me.
Also, if you want someone to do your makeup for your deb or formal or something, I'm your man! Just send me a cheeky inbox on Facebook or text me if you have my number and I will LITERALLY POUNCE ON THAT JOB LIKE A LION ON A MOUSE.
Anyways, love ya, love me, love always, Sherlock.
I kid, it's me Elise!
SEE YAAAA
xxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, 10 April 2013
Goodbye
I feel like I'm ready to say goodbye to this boring part of my life that I've been living for the past 3 months. But I don't know how to do it.
I want to stop doing nothing with my days but start working towards my dream, but I don't know how to start...What am I supposed to do?
I watch countless YouTube videos of the girls of Little Mix doing sound checks/backstage at concerts and nothing makes me feel more motivated to do that then watching those girls, I just don't know how I'm supposed to get there and I definitely know I don't have the talent to get to where I want to be! I feel like I'm sitting here disappointing people by not having achieved anything yet...I mean I finished school almost 6 months ago and I feel like I'm still waiting for the plate to be delivered to me on how I'm supposed to get to the stage with my guitar and a microphone and an audience who wants to see me perform.
And the longer I sit and think and wait, the more I start to convince myself that it's never going to happen for me, I'm not actually good enough to make it...I'm just going to be one of those 45 year old ladies trying out for X Factor because I failed as a kid. I don't want that at all. And I don't want to enter a career in Makeup Artistry because I failed making into my true passion either. I feel like being a makeup artist would make me happy, but I'd never be truly happy, if you know what I mean. I'd always pine for the stage, for the audience, for the music.
So I repeat, how am I supposed to make it if I can't even think of a way to start? Do I just need someone to help me?
I want YouTube to be a thing for me as well, the desire to be a successful vlogger on that website has grown over the past couple of weeks...But once again that niggling in my mind says to me that I'll never reach 100 subscribers on YouTube, let alone hundreds or thousands and that is something that dampens my happiness a little bit everyday.
I'm scared...is pretty much what I'm saying. I'm scared that I'll end up being a middle aged woman with no husband, no dreams reached and no true happiness.
So if you have any words of advice or wisdom, please inbox them to me on Facebook or Twitter or wherever you feel like. Please. Don't be too scared to if we don't talk ever, just send me words of wisdom to help me...Coz right now at 10:31 on the 10th of April, 2013, I feel lost and unsure of what to do and how to go about achieving my dreams.
Elise
xx
I want to stop doing nothing with my days but start working towards my dream, but I don't know how to start...What am I supposed to do?
I watch countless YouTube videos of the girls of Little Mix doing sound checks/backstage at concerts and nothing makes me feel more motivated to do that then watching those girls, I just don't know how I'm supposed to get there and I definitely know I don't have the talent to get to where I want to be! I feel like I'm sitting here disappointing people by not having achieved anything yet...I mean I finished school almost 6 months ago and I feel like I'm still waiting for the plate to be delivered to me on how I'm supposed to get to the stage with my guitar and a microphone and an audience who wants to see me perform.
And the longer I sit and think and wait, the more I start to convince myself that it's never going to happen for me, I'm not actually good enough to make it...I'm just going to be one of those 45 year old ladies trying out for X Factor because I failed as a kid. I don't want that at all. And I don't want to enter a career in Makeup Artistry because I failed making into my true passion either. I feel like being a makeup artist would make me happy, but I'd never be truly happy, if you know what I mean. I'd always pine for the stage, for the audience, for the music.
So I repeat, how am I supposed to make it if I can't even think of a way to start? Do I just need someone to help me?
I want YouTube to be a thing for me as well, the desire to be a successful vlogger on that website has grown over the past couple of weeks...But once again that niggling in my mind says to me that I'll never reach 100 subscribers on YouTube, let alone hundreds or thousands and that is something that dampens my happiness a little bit everyday.
I'm scared...is pretty much what I'm saying. I'm scared that I'll end up being a middle aged woman with no husband, no dreams reached and no true happiness.
So if you have any words of advice or wisdom, please inbox them to me on Facebook or Twitter or wherever you feel like. Please. Don't be too scared to if we don't talk ever, just send me words of wisdom to help me...Coz right now at 10:31 on the 10th of April, 2013, I feel lost and unsure of what to do and how to go about achieving my dreams.
Elise
xx
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